Answering the Door 1
Article by Helen Longest-Saccone, Editor-in-Chief
Photography by Marty Saccone, Editor
“And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, . . .”
In early 2013, like so many people before me, I again answered the knock at my heart’s door—a knocking that had been persistent for 40+ years.
Throughout my life I did my best to be a good person. I tried to do good works, be honest, and work hard. Yet too often during my adult years my life has felt like I was caught in a storm. I sought the help of a naturopathic doctor, a chiropractor, and energy workers. I unsuccessfully tried to meditate. I listened to self-help CDs, viewed DVDs, and read more books than I care to count. Even though the authors had good recommendations, I discovered that oftentimes I still suffered from a lack of forgiveness, I judged-—I sinned. As a result I felt pain. I was trying to fix myself and I was failing miserably.
I quieted my mind and listened to the knock, and God revealed that I was lost. It was frightening. I had offered my life to Jesus and been saved when I was eight years old and I thought I would be forever, but along life’s way I became lost.
Once I reopened my heart’s door, God offered me the saving grace of His Son and removed fear and replaced it with faith. I gave myself back to Jesus and laid my life at His Cross. Only God can give me the strength to ask for forgiveness, to examine my conscience, and to strive to avoid temptation. So, I pray, read His word, and spend time in silence opening myself to be able to hear His messages. I now realize that I could never have fixed myself. It is not possible. My life is and always has been in God’s loving and forgiving hands.
Life is easier now that the storm has passed and I have found faith. My prayer is that I can live with love for all, be free of judgment, put ego aside, and reach out to others. I pray that I forgive rather than harbor grudges, love rather than hate, live in peace rather than conflict, understand rather than judge—that I am obedient to His will. Each day I will do my best, but I need the help of my Creator and I must listen to Him. Each day anew I give my life to God.